I understood something today

WELL....lets just say...I understand myself a little better....why all the frustration, hurt, and anger???  A great friend of mine,,,I refer to her as my councelor.  Her councelor told her that when life throws you into this kind of trauma...a trauma of the heart and mind....all sorts of things happen.  A failed marriage is VERY TRAUMATIC.  It leaves one wounded, a bleeding heart, among other wounds.

Just imagine....failed marriage, hurts beyond imagination.  A new set of problems, worries, and fears....essentially this person is laying on a guerney bleeding, however only time heals these wounds.  Someone comes along with judgemental words, an opinion, or a good intention....anyways the words are very discouraging to this very injured person....that discouragment is like putting salt on the wounds....it prolongs healing.  Then some other person comes along adds more salt with

11-22-09 SUNDAY

this is a first....I woke wanting to compose an entry....I woke up this am...came downstairs...so realizing that everyroom in this house is in disarray. JUST HOW DID WE GET HERE...

It is Sunday....A TIME TO WORSHIP......A TIME TO REST.    What does this look like to the single mother of 4....she doesnt know where to begin.   She knows what needs to be done, but where to begin.  First she has to find the energy to address this family's needs.  Where does she find that....IN THE LORD


DEAR WONDERFUL MERCIFUL SAVIOUR..

THIS IS THE DAY THAT YOU HAVE MADE...HELP US REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT....

1.  How should we rejoice
2.  How to be glad in it.

REMOVE MY GUILT AND REPLACE IT WITH SOMETHING WE CAN WORK WITH.  GIVE ME CREATIVITY TO BRING SOME HEALING AND DEPENDENCY ON YOU INTO THIS DAY.  CONSUME ME AND MY CHILDREN WITH ALL OF YOU..   KEEP OUR EYES ON YOU AND NOT OF THE STUFF OF THIS WORLD.  PLACE A HEDGE AROUND US, ONE THAT EVEN THE ENEMY CAN NOT PENETRATE.

GIVE ME THY HEALING POWERS
1. against anger
2. laziness which distracts me from you

PRICK MY HEART DAILY OF HOW MUCH I NEED YOU AND THY WORD.  USE ME TO BRING GLORY TO YOUR KINGDOM.  USE ME TO BE A LIGHT AND SALT.  USE ME IN A QUIET UNSEEN WAY.  ESPECIALLY IN MY HOME.  ONLY YOU CAN DO THIS...ONLY YOU HAVE THIS KIND OF WISDOM AND CREATIVITY.  ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF THIS MAGNITUDE AND ABILITIES.

I PRAY OVER MY CHILDREN...

1. patience
2. kindness
3. the conscious of right and wrong that comes only from the Holy Spirit
4. protection from the enemy...protection from the world, peers
5. health and knowledge
6. a desire to learn about YOU...that only you can place in their hearts and minds
7. discernment
8. responsibility
9. a deep desire to please YOU
10. obedience
11. discipline

LORD THANK YOU FOR HEARING MY PRAYER...HELP ME TO CLEAN OUT MY HEART DUMP THE BAD OUT...I WANT TO DO THIS WILLINGLY WITH YOUR HELP...PLEASE NO TRIAL IN DOING SO.


LOVE  AND IN JESUS NAME

ME..A SERVANT IN THE MAKING

The journey

Where Should I start...maybe  praising God...reflecting on the enemys power.....defining the pain, the loneliness.  I am not sure,,,but I do know that I have to be encouraged.  God is bigger than my storm....I will praise Him in this storm.  I will glorify Him in His presence.  Thank Him for scriptures such as Psalm 34 and many many others.

If this was my thorn for life, I could bare it...but the enemy keeps me wondering...is something bigger coming down the road in life...  Are my children going to make it.  Will they love the Lord, Our God with a hunger and thirst that only HE above can quench.

Then I think of the anger...The anger that comes with emotional trauma.  The hurt emotions that often causes me (and many others )  to speak words we regret... 

The Fear...but to realize that God does not give us the Spirit of Fear; but of power, and of LOVE, and of a sound mind.  11 Timothy 1:7

The Judgement....only to realize that we are not equipped to use that "spirit"...never...We humanly can not exercise judgement.  We don"t have the wisdom.

The world....Where me and my children are now part of....we now are a statistic that is so common in the "world"....Who will have more influence over them.....mommy or the world...She is stretched beyond to point that only a single mother can ever understand.

The need for PRAYER....the power that comes with it....where 2 or more gather in my name...I like to think that means 2 people praying is 2X powerful...Hence the reason for this entry...Help me to overcome .... help me to overcome the anger of hurt....help me to overcome the judgement from man....help me and my children overcome the world...Prayer with me for an overcoming life...


Please partner with me in this storm...it takes a church sometimes to raise a single parent home....thanks you and Many Blessings to all...


sheila k

sheila and the fabulous four

ok...my day off and I am ready to take a nap

call before you crash the party

Ok....morgan stayed over night at jane hartzlers, one part of the terrific 2 missing from dinner....expected a nice calm dinner>>>>Skyler.....ended up in bed...I just know he will tinkle in the bed tonight...dinner finished...part of the 2 month plan...just ok

talked the kids into cleaning up the kitchen, while I sat down for a couple of minutes.  Wouldnt you know that Jim and Pat stop over.  Usually at this time of night I am up and moving, but they walk in and see me laying around and the house a mess.   Oh well...It is no secret that I do not have it all together.

Anyways, prior to my visit, I was kind of down.  The kids have to be effected by this whole protection order.  I called Gabriels teacher, sort out her feelings...  Now what to do about jacob....time for a prayer request
Mrs. Donna Ryan.  She and Gabriel are very good friends.  Last year they journaled together which helped Gabriel
Dear God

Its me sheila...
I need so much wisdom, direction, ambition and patience.
Give me Grace for the moment
Grace to finish my day
Grace to organize my morning
Grace to get into YOUR word
Grace for directing my children
Grace for patience

Lord I need what I dont even know what I need.   I need to communicate with my children...wisdom, for raising them in this  less than perfect situation. 

Lord, help me to build them up
Lord, give my children a hearts desire for you
Lord, give me a bigger hearts desire for you

I pray for cooperation from them with bible study,  family tradition, family fun that gives you the glory

Lord I want you as the Head of this Household...Help us to establish YOUR PRESENCE and know that YOU ARE OUR ALL AND ALL

LOVE LOVE LVOE YOU